An ordinary girl I am. I’m not good at anything. I have no talent and I don’t have any to unleash. Indeed, an ordinary, a “commoner” as in the fairy tale. And fortunately, a fairy tale happened to me. But in my own version of fairytale, I’m not a commoner, I’m a princess!
December 19, 2009. “Don’t be so much in love that you can’t tell when the rain is coming”,I uttered those words and in an instant I was chosen to play the role of Antigone. i was taken aback! “Of all my classmates, me? Why me?”, that question automatically puffed up into my mind. And I felt shame. It seems that a cold wind crept all over my body. I’m afraid, I’m afraid that I won’t be able to do it, to play the role of Antigone properly.
Acting is no easy task, especially when you’re playing the role of a person whose character and personality are far different from yours. Antigone was a brave woman. “She shows her father spirit, a stubborn spirit, foolish not to give way when everything is against her”, said Woman 2. Yes, she is not afraid to stand against everybody as long as she knows she’s right. With the kind of personality she has, she is so not me. I can say I’m strong but not as strong as she is. I have a soft heart and to stand alone against everybody is the very thing I can’t do. I’d rather be kind than to be right. I’d prefer to keep my mouth shut than hurt anyone with my words.
“I do admit it. I don’t deny it.”, this was my first line. From that line alone, I find it hard to give justice to that line because I have to be proud and yet respectful. It’s difficult, I tell you. And what I learned from that is, the shorter the line is the more difficult it is to give justice to it – to utter the lines properly with appropriate emotion.
When I was chosen to be Antigone, it added to my burdens because that time I was totally broken. I wasn’t up to anything. I was on my downfall days, in fact I was planning to give up the role. “Maniwala ka, magandang training to”, said Adeliz. As I was absorbing those words, I‘ve realized “why not give it a try?”. And as I read the whole play, went on with our practice, inconspicuously I was also picking up the “pieces of me”. little by little, I have learned to love Antigone. Her personality, her whole being made me ask myself, “Why not be like her? Strong despite of everything.” And as I went on, I’ve realized that it was one of the ways of God to help me fix myself. I lost someone, “yeah.”, but God gave me something that is worth remembering, the play, the experiences and the lessons I’ve learned from it, and He immediately find a way to pick up the “pieces of me” and made me whole again.
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