.ssshhh…I like him too. I already liked him way back then. But it didn’t grow because…1) he’s 3 years older than me, and perhaps he just sees me as his little sister way back then; 2) we barely see each other-twice or thrice a year-, but now every week; 3) we seldom talk. We usually have our conversation during the last day of my stay at their place or several hours before we leave.
.i don’t know if it was true or it’s just a bait. A bait for them to trap and leave me looking stupid for confessing what I really feel about him. It’s just a crush, though. they're teasing us! His uncles are the best teasers ever! Sometimes they’re getting in my nerves! They even put us on a “hot-sit”. and he was asked about what he feels about me and the “amew” said, “I really like her.” Waaahhh! Haha! But when it’s my turn I said NO! toinks. Ostentatious isn’t it? Well, I’m a girl and a girl should not be that vulgar! Haha![sexism! Against sa akong thesis! Haha!] well, “dyahe kaya”. But they didn’t believe me! “of course, because I like him too”, I told myself. And there’s a part of me-a big part- that seemed delighted knowing that they didn’t buy it. haha! They even pictured out how our “relationship”, if ever, would look like. They almost caught me off guard. I almost carried away with the thought of me having a relationship with him [yayks], if weren’t for the nagging fact that I’m with my aunt and my uncle, perhaps, would get disappointed with me if ever I’d end up having a relationship with his nephew.[sigh]
.we’ve known each other for almost a decade now. He’s cute, tall [taller than yannie, I think] and sweet. I really like his eyes. He’s financially stable. In fact, he earns much more than my father does. He can have his own family if he wishes to. But I know he’s too young for that matter and perhaps he wants to enjoy first the so called “single-blessedness” that God has given us. It’s embarrassing to admit but he once locked me in his arms saying “I’m just here, waiting for you.” Yeah, thanks for my absurdity that time he didn't get any bruise. haha!
. though regret washed over me for not saying that I like him too, I know it was right. I believe there’s always a time for everything, a time to frown and a time to smile. and this is not “our" time yet. But it’s my time to shine-to free myself from all the heartaches I’ve experienced. And I’m glad I made it. I’m fine now and ready to explore the enigma of life. and i want to savor the so called “single-blessedness” too. this is life. and from now on, I would just do things my way, be happy and let the chips fall where they may.
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